Welcome
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been living with Depersonalisation Derealisation Disorder (DPDR). It’s a bit of a mouthful, and not the easiest thing to explain.
In simple terms, DPDR is the term given to persistent feelings of detachment and disconnection; from yourself, and from the world around you. Like you’re floating through life instead of actually living it.
I created Mostly Kate as a way to tell my story, raise awareness, and hopefully help someone out there feel a little less alone. This is my space to write through the fog. To capture small, honest moments. To find pieces of myself again, one post at a time.
Maybe you’ve felt it too; the numbness, the constant questioning, the sense that life doesn’t feel quite real. If so, hi. I see you. You’re not broken. And you’re definitely not alone.
I don’t have all the answers (not even close), but I’m here, figuring things out. I’ll be sharing what’s helped, what hasn’t, and everything in between; the weird, the hopeful, the difficult, and the real.
FAQs
What is DPDR?
DPDR stands for Depersonalisation-Derealisation Disorder. It’s a type of dissociative disorder characterised by persistent or recurrent feelings of detachment from oneself (depersonalisation) and/or one’s surroundings (derealisation).
Depersonalisation can feel like you’re disconnected from your own body, thoughts, or emotions; almost like you’re observing yourself from the outside. Derealisation, on the other hand, can make the world around you feel unreal, dreamlike, or distorted.
While many people experience these feelings occasionally (especially during stress – the best example is being in ‘shock’ after a car accident), DPDR is when they become ongoing, distressing, and start to interfere with daily life.
What causes it?
DPDR can be triggered by a range of things, including trauma or chronic stress, panic attacks and anxiety, depression, drug use (particularly cannabis or psychedelics), and even lack of sleep or burnout.
At its core, it’s the brain’s way of protecting you; creating distance from overwhelming experiences. The exact cause and triggers look different for everyone.
Can I get a diagnosis?
Yes! Even though DPDR isn’t widely talked about, it is absolutely possible to get a diagnosis.
If you’re looking to explore this, here are a few places you can start:
- London Psychiatry Clinic
- London Anxiety Clinic
- Unreal Charity
Can I reach out to you?
Of course. 🤍
If you want to ask questions, share your experience, or just talk to someone who understands, head over to my Instagram, my DMs are always open, or drop me an email at mostlykateuk@gmail.com.
Thank you for being here.
Even if things feel blurry right now, you matter. And you’re doing better than you think.
— Kate x
https://www.londonpsychiatry.clinic/conditions/depersonalisation
https://www.unrealcharity.com/info-get-help-now
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